My New Years Resolution

Since undoubtedly, I will be in bed while everyone celebrates the New Year. I will discuss my new years resolutions to myself because I hate writing things down and I know they will never be seen again so I'd rather type them down on a post so I can at least remember it.

09 is all about ME
I've always tried to make sure others were okay before worrying about my own health. If someone feels down or is having problems I try to go out of their way to make them feel better. Well the problem with this is that no one cares what I do or say. I mean I don't see many going out of their way to do the same or for that matter just seeing how I am doing. So I worry about myself and myself only because I need to make sure my health is right because when I'm gone I don't know if any one would know. "Out of Sight Out of Mind"

165-170lbs
I don't plan on dieting for it. I just plan on running myself to get back into peak conditioning so when I go out to play. I can be leaner, stronger, and faster than I have before. It isn't that I feel like I am fat or anything I just want to feel better about myself and to be fit for anything that comes along. Who knows I might do a marathon soon right.

Goodbye Fringe Friends
To all those people that I try to keep in touch with on facebook and such just to say how you are doing. I am going to wish you a good life and hope the best for you. I am not going to bother you anymore. It's obvious from the responses that you don't want to hear it so for all that I am going to let ya go. I won't delete anybody from my facebook or anything. That is just stupid but you won't hear from me. I know in your New Years parties you can celebrate that also. You people know exactly who you are I don't have to name any examples.

Not letting you win
Now the previous resolution is going to be hard because I honestly feel isolated when noone ever talks to me so I get back on facebook and AIM to talk to people to feel like someone cares when they in all reality don't. So I'm promising myself to not let you win. If I ever don't hear from anybody again, Well I know what these people are about and I will not be surprised. You aren't winning

Getting over having to go out
More about the isolation of my life. I feel like I have to "socialize" to feel important and going out is another thing that I think that I should do. a) it's a waste of money which I probably need and b) the feeling almost everytime I go out just makes me regret going out. So I mean I'll go out occasionally but hopefully I won't feel the need to go out all the time anymore.

Well I'm sure you are making your plans of going out to your various New Years Eve spots. So have a good time and enjoy your friends. I'm sure to be knocked unconscious by the night medicine I will take and no I'm not sick.

Can I get my 360 back please?

I know it is Sunday and I am sure that there's no possibility of them fixing it now, but the boredom has increasingly taken over my body. I can no longer listen to my parents babble on about useless nonsense or commentate on things that they have little knowledge about and then asking me to explain to them about these things when in all reality I am not listening at all. Yeah I just don't listen anymore, now I just sit there, looking for places to find a job because I need one. Oh here they go again, arguing over getting the phone. Can someone get the phone and just deal with it. I don't understand anything anymore. I just go off in my own world and not pay too much attention. You know friends would be nice but I probably should not bother them with my nonsense anymore. So my old reliable buddy is my 360 who is currently in Texas getting fixed or at least the repairs are in progress. Now I am searching for a new video game possibly or just something to keep me away from facebook which is virtually impossible because every time I type. I would type F first and then the rest is history, I'm on my profile wondering how I got there and knowing that this was not my real purpose of getting on internet explorer but I do. Oh well just pray for 360 being fixed within the next week or so. Peace

What's in My Head Nowadays

Christmas has come and passed. Now like everyone else I'm getting ready for the new year. And hopefully some new beginnings. I'm still in Greenville just hanging out. I find it hard to do anything but sleep, play soccer, work out and then do that all over again. Many of friends are hard to come by currently around here. Even though I did hang out with some people last night and that was fun. Today I just let the hangover pass and then I ran worked out in Gold's Gym then I ran back home. I feel like I've been getting fitter and fitter lately, so hopefully I can continue on these ways to complete my goal (It will be on the resolutions post next week coming up). Right now I will start just typing things that are on my mind at the moment.


I find it strange that news websites and newspapers in general will show mutilated and dead bodies of people from other countries however when it comes to people in the United States we try not to show them. Which I understand why we don't show our own because I believe that families of the victims should not have to be dealing with pictures of their love ones who are dead. However I just have a problem with people showing dead people from other countries, especially children. I feel like we should show the same respect in which we treat with the people in our country. If it were soldiers then I wouldn't have any beef with it, but when they show civilians being battered and bloodily without any limps left. I don't know I feel like that is something that bothers me.

I've been thinking about a new pair of cleats to get myself for the new season. Lately I've been rocking Adidas cleats and they have been very comfortable to me. I got a pair of AdiPures (the two pairs of cleats above) and a pair of TUnits (the black and yellow cleats). I am debating which pair I should really good. The AdiPures are comfortable on my feet. I feel like I can move freely with them on and they are very light on my feet. The TUnits have the same comfort and I can strike/ pass a ball with great accuracy. So I don't really know, I feel like what will influence my decision is what colors are out for each shoe. I like the colors that they have out now, If I would get some TUnits I wouldn't get the ones pictured above. I would get the white and red ones that Arsenal's Emmanuel Adebayor wears. I can't really find a picture of it right now. As for the Adipure's I would like those white ones that are shown in the picture. Also the ones that are white with blue outlined on it are nice too. I also thought about getting the ones that are all black but I'm not the biggest fan of black cleats. I'll wear them but I mean if I had another choice I would choose the latter (unless it was pink or yellow).

I'm now laying here watching survivorman and just kicking it for a Saturday night for once. I think Survivorman is cool, people gave Bear Grylls (who does Man vs Wild) a hard time for staying in a hotel one time during one of his adventures and for some time I was mildly upset but then I thought about it. He does some wild shit out there. Climbing up mountains, jumping in a river/lake, dealing with extreme temperatures, and jumping into ice ponds and getting out of them. If he decides to go for a night in a hotel and eat steak instead of staying in the elements, he can do that in my book. Survivorman really just do things like walk around and make camp fires, and find food, not knocking him for that, but I don't really see him do half the stuff that Bear does.

Alright I'm going to go back and watch some more TV before I head to bed for the night. Next post will probably be on Tuesday or Wednesday when I begin my discussion of the New Year and my resolutions for the new year. Until then See Ya

Merry Christmas

Alright I'll write something with more substenance then talking about my problem with pink shoes.

I just really wanted to say Merry Christmas to all of you. From the people who are very important in my life, all the way to those who are on the fringe and to those that don't want to hear anything from me. All of you are a part of my life in many ways. Whether you know it or not. Whether you think the one or two conversations that we ever had matter. It shapes us, it shapes our characters. There is good in all the people I know and the many of the other people that I don't know. I just want to celebrate the good in people.

To my friends, I love you and I will always be there if you ever need anything. If you need a stupid joke or if you just want somebody to talk to or need a person to vent (no not the beer can) to. I'll always be there and I value your friendship very much.

To the fringe/ the people that I do not hear from a lot: I hope you have a Merry Christmas also. I hope that you are your group of friends and family enjoy yourself in this time because I understand that you can't have hundreds of friends to look after. So look after the ones you are most close to and keep them in your hearts because you don't know if anyone like them will ever come again. (There is also a New Years Resolution to you that will come in a week; be excited)

To the Fam: It's pretty self-explanatory. I don't really need to say much. I'm glad I have you and I hope to have you guys for a LONG time. I don't know where I would be without you. Learning from mistakes in the past and learning from things you have taught me made me the person I am. And I thank you.

To Everyone, Much Love Have a Merry Christmas, Happy Hannahkah, and Happy Kwanzaa. If I forgot anything forgive me.

Next Up For My Nonsense is 09 and the Resolutions that I will try to follow.

What the Hell?

I guess this is the new fad now of days. I don't know where exactly did it come from but it should stop with these two shoes. I know Cam'Ron will be proud of these two cleats. The Pumas are okay, they are outlined with pink but they are mostly black. Still I just don't understand who thought that it was the best idea to put some pink in these shoes. And the vapors are a) hideous and b) anybody I see wearing them are going to get it. I will not mind taking a red card and a possible $50 to $500 fine and miss three games for it. You deserve it. I don't want to mistake anyone and say that it is gay to wear these shoes. I don't believe it is, but you are putting a huge target on your feet when you start wearing shoes that don't really match anything that your team wears unless you play for the Serie A team Palermo.

Just whenever you decide to give your son a gift and he comes up to you with an eurosport magazine and says "Here I want these shoes." You should roll up the magazine and bop him in the back of the head and tell him that you think that this will hurt, Imagine what will happen if you decide to wear these shoes to guys who will kick you just for breathing. I mean if you can dodge everybody and make sure you don't get hit ever then by I all means go ahead and wear the shoes. However I will not have any sympathy for anyone who decide to don these shoes. Personally I would not wear anything that is too bright, no yellow or green. If there were only two shoes in the world and I had to choose between these two then I would choose the Pums cause it at least has some black in them and you don't have to worry about saying "no homo" after everytime somebody looks at you playing soccer. Ha! Hey I won't judge you, but I will make sure you regret wearing those cleats unless you make millions in which you can do what you want cause more than likely you get those for free.

But be glad that at least Cam'Ron will appreciate your taste in soccer shoes, well I don't think you know who he is and I highly doubt that he pays attention to soccer that much to worry about it.

Was I frustrated??? Pt. 2

So why I still here watchin MNF and listening to my music to avoid any questioning that might be pushed my way by my parents. I forget exactly what I was frustrated about. Yeah I do have a slow leak on one of my tires that I need to get fixed but other than that I don't really have too much of anything really that is pressing. So I'm just going to go off and talk about the lil crap that might be a bit frustrating but not leading to any problems.

I hate it when people don't give me the ball in a soccer game and they go off and do something retarded and I end up having to go back and get the ball back. I'm not usually greedy with the game of soccer. I try to have fun and enjoy myself. However I do hate losing and my pride won't take nothing else even if it is for certain that team isn't as good as the other. But I just don't like it when I don't see the ball for a couple of minutes and then they end up getting scored on a couple of times. Like when I was in Greenville, I was finding a bit frustrating and we were losing the final game and I just felt like well then I am going to have to travel from one side of the field all the way to the other and back. It actually doesn't happen often because most of the time I play with fellow ballers and they at least trust me with the ball and they know that I'm more than likely going to be able to dish it back to ya. My assist game has been on point lately or at least my passing game has been on point. It's hard to get assist when they miss the shots hahahaha

I wonder why people ask you a question that you know you don't have the answer to and you don't want to make a lame excuse and they end up getting mad at you anyways. For example: "Why did you do this?" And you know you did it so you are just like "well I did it I don't have an excuse" then they get mad and be like "WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DON'T HAVE AN EXCUSE." If you do make an excuse then they be like, "I don't want to hear your bullshit." I mean what exactly do you want me to say. I mean there isn't an intelligent enough answer to satisfy anyone. So I will stick to my well I have no excuse or explanation if I did something I did it and you don't really want to here my reasoning so I don't want to give it to you.

I feel like I should just IM or text people that I know hate my guts just for the sake of doing it. For at least the simple reason to irritate the living daylights out of them and keep them on their toes and if they decide to block me from talking to them then that is fine with me. That is exactly what I am trying to do to begin with. It's a win/win situation. I love those things.

I'm leaving you alone right now. Knowing what might happen within the next day or so I will get something from you to keep me on my toes. Well I think I am ready for the nonsense. So you can bring it! I'm a pro at nonsense

Frustration Part 1

This is a two part series. This first one isn't anything about me. It is more about the frustration of watching Valencia loses to the club I hate the most Real Madrid 1-0 on Saturday. I watched the game multiple times so I could shit on the players that I wanted to and what not but I will try to be mild on my assessment because the fact of the matter is that we did not play a bad game at all. Until we went down to ten-men (due to Renan's poor clearing) because of Marchena getting a second yellow, we were dominating possession and getting some clear chances. Manuel Fernandes has a bright future. He shows very good close control and he can get out of situations so silky and smooth. However he is not able to show the control in front of goal that it is needed for him to be a world-class player at the moment. Albeda and Baraja didn't do too much for me. Baraja had a threatening header but they were not too controlling in the midfield and didn't do anything that caught my eye. Del Horno had a torrid time with Robben today. I don't know why he looked confused of why he was getting subbed out of the game. I mean most of the time I felt like he was a cone that the dutchman was going around. However after two consecutive games I've seen him in (Dynamo Kiev in the Champions League and Valencia last Saturday), I must say that Arjen Robben, when healthy, is one of the best natural wingers in the game. Except for the fact that he is a bit greedy in front of goal which might rub his teammates the wrong way. He was very influential in Real's victory. Especially with his splitting run to dish a pass to Higuain who took the shot beautifully with his outside of the foot.

Now I know I am not a Joaquin fan or anything but he had a lively start to the game and he was actually doing pretty well. But for whatever reason, he faded as the game progressed and it was pretty hard for anyone to get going after going down a man. David Villa was dangerous in the first half but not as dangerous as he should have been. For some reason he kept on taking the ball too wide and giving himself no angle for quality shots. He did test Casillas but I don't think it was enough to make him sweat. David Silva needs to hurry and get match-field so we can have another quality player on the field to help Villa out. I could tell that he did not look on form as of now. I think I left some players out but I don't want to re-watch it anymore to figure it out.

I was listening to the match commentary and they were saying that the credit crunch is hurting Valencia right now and there is a possibility that they need to sell their top players like David Villa and Silva to make sure that they can break even or be close to it. I don't think that they should do that because if this club makes the Champions League then the money would be able to come in and sure maybe in January you can sell off some players like Zigic and maybe even sell Del Horno to a lower La Liga club because I don't think he is Valencia quality anymore. Moretti is a way better player then Del Horno. Also if you want to sell a top player, let Joaquin go and give more minutes to Vicente who does pretty well for himself or insert David Silva back in the lineup when he becomes match fit. I don't think it would be plausible to give up David Silva and David Villa then think that you are going to challenge for a Champions League spot. If I had to give up one sad to say that I would have to give up David Silva, because Villa is a once in a lifetime player and you cannot find strikers nowadays like him. Mata is growing to become a great player in himself and he can easily replace Silva but who is going to replace Villa? Morientes? Although he is a good player he is getting older and I don't think that he could take on the load that Villa is able to.

Alright Part 1 is over. I'll probably be back later on today to talk about part 2. As for now I am going to take a nap and waste some more time. Cause I know that I need to.