Taking this Year off

I was going to write this ridiculous blog posting about basically hating a holiday that isn't real and all that jazz but I probably should leave it alone and take this year off of making my assault on this day.

For starters 1) I've written lots of notes to myself saying that I don't like that crappy day or anything.
2) I don't think I would write a full post. I'd probably get to some point and just stop abruptly and not get something started.
3) I don't really want you guys to have the satisfaction of listening to misery.

So I am going to take the high road for once. Not say anything mean to people tomorrow and keep my thoughts about it to myself because I understand that it is my loneliness talking and I can handle that. Now I am not going to be happy all of a sudden but I am just going to keep my mouth close for once and let everybody enjoy their day. There are people that are happy and I should not try to rain on their parade.

Now if someone asks why I don't have a Valentine's and keeps on pushing it. Then I am not responsible for my action. Just let me get through my work-day, get home and play fifa for the rest of this day til I don't have to see these crappy commercials.

(Because I know fully that most of these stupid flowers will be sent to my office and I have to deliver them to people. Luckily I only work a half-day tomorrow)

Thanks...

Continuing to Try and Figure Myself Out

It is ridiculous how I feel whenever I have a day off. Yesterday, I had my day off to deal with a couple of matters that had to be tended to. After I was done, I caught myself being incredibly bored and sort of wishing that I was at work.

I know what you are thinking. This job isn't well-paid nor am I being a full-time worker but still even though I act cranky due to working 9 to 6 sometimes. I actually do not mind it at the end of the day in which the day is almost over. Then all I have to do now is either chores or watch tv (often I watch tv).

I think that is why I cannot wait to hold down a full-time job. Now I don't have any kids (that I know of), no girlfriend, and really no priorities except for bills that I will need to pay. I think it is something that I am actually looking forward to. Work during the week and possibly "play" during the weekends, it is an intriguing prospect.

Don't get it twisted that soccer isn't in the rear-view yet, however I am beginning to take a more realistic view about things on that front. If I can't find somewhere that I know people in high-places at this point in time, the whole soccer thing isn't going to happen more than likely. I actually rather play on this CASL Elite team that I am on. A bunch of guys like myself who if dedicated themselves could still play but are realistic about their chances and like to have fun off the pitch.

So what am I saying? Am I giving up my dream? Am I ready to wear a suit? No and No but I can see a bit clearly on what I need to do to become independent for myself and not have to rely on people. I need to rely more on myself than others or I would put myself in trouble as I have done in the past...

The World is going to End

I don't think the world is going to end however I think I am slowly going insane. Two weeks ago, my car bit the dust and I was told that I need a new engine in there. Which is weird because I have not had the car but for so long. For two weeks and one of the longest weekends that I've been through, I have been without a car and depending on people to take people places. I am not the type of person that likes depending on people for rides because they might have other things to do and I just don't want to be getting in the middle of that.

A couple of days ago my laptop just stopped working. I don't know what was going on with it. The screen just went black and has stayed black. I still don't know the cause of it as of now.

So now I don't have a car and a laptop. Two important parts of my current life. Need a car to get around and go to work and I just need my laptop because I love having it around. I don't know how else I am going to manage without it.

It could not get worse or could it??

I know I am making extreme statements and most people don't have a laptop or a car or even a house. So I am not necessarily concerned about these mishaps. It is a part of life that happens to everyone. I just need to roll up my sleeves and get over what is going on. Life moves on and I move forward. So I am going to stay on the move.

Everyone have a wonderful weekend and cherish the important things in life and not material things.

Marshawn Lynch: The True Meaning of Determination.

This guy that did the Greg Jennings, "Put the Team on my back." and Ryan Grant's "Determination" video. I got to say one thing, if I ever had to play Madden against this fool. I would put some earphones on and tell this guy to Shut the Eff Up! at every moment.

But listen to him do his color commentary on Madden and even on real games are funny as anything. This video was from the Saints and Seahawks wild card match up a couple of weeks ago. When Marshawn Lynch broke through about eight tackles. So you know yo ole boy demetryjames86 had to chime in on the proceedings.

"Darren Sharper, Hold my Dick."

Ronaldinho: For the Love of the Game or Money or Partying??

"(Ronaldinho) is not going to play because he likes his chosen team, because he loves them, because he wants to show the Brazilian public that he can still play - he will play for whoever gives him the most, and I think that is wrong.'" -Pele

This is after Ronaldinho shunned his old and hometown club, Gremio. The quote is pretty self-explanatory. Pele is disappointed in Ronaldinho for taking more money and going to Flamengo.

Ronaldinho says that his motivation is to regain his spot in the Brazilian National Team for the 2014 World Cup. Sounds like a decent reason to play to come back to play in Brazil but if that is fully the case he would be playing with his old club. Financial motivations come into play also. We do not know how much he stands to be paid by Flamengo and their chief sponsors. However it just does not smell right.

Dinho and his brother have been parading around trying to see who would be the highest bidder rather than letting it come to the heart. He makes it sounds as if he has been playing magical football lately. He has his moments but any footballing eye knows that this isn't the same footballer whose won World Player of the Year awards.


His World Cup aspirations? R10s out-going lifestyle is well-known. He isn't the best conditioned athlete anymore. Everyone understands that players should be able to cut-loose especially after games in which they've put their heart and souls. I don't blame anyone for relaxing for a night. However when partying exceeds training then that is where the problems arises. (I know *hits tummy*) He has been known to be late to training sessions and miss them altogether. For someone who wants to regain his national team spot, he has to show the motivation to be on the training pitch and actually play for his team. There are many young Brazilians who are ready and willing to stamp their claims on A Seleção.

Also being back in his homeland, he will be much more inclined to party and enjoy his life. Like I said, I don't have a problem with that. I also don't have a problem with him taking more money either. He knows that he has about four or five more good years left (if he stays in Brazil). He might as well make the most of that and if someone is willing to pay the man. Then show him the money....



http://worldfootball.dailymail.co.uk/2011/01/after-ronaldinho-could-david-beckham-play-in-brazil.html

The link above deals with the economics of Brazilian Football and why clubs are able to pay big money for star attractions. Also why it is highly unlikely that David Beckham could be drawn into playing in Brazil.

My Ice Adventure

I wake up in the morning at around 8:55am. I haven't gotten the call that the building was closed or anything I have to rush now since I pretty much have to leave for the post office at 9am. So I brush my teeth, get my clothes on, and I head out to my car.

At my place there are a couple of steps going down to my driveway. For some dumb reason, I have a brain freeze and try to rush down the steps. At this point, I slip down to the first step, trying to grab the railings but they are frozen in ice. I luckily catch my footing before I fall and basically ruin my day.

Now, I am in my car with the windows frozen so I can't see out of my car. I'm already late getting out the house. So now I have to wait 15 to 20 minutes for my windows to be seeable. I just pass time at this point. I listened to ESPN Radio and impatiently waited til at least my windows were partially clear.

30 minutes later, I am driving to the post office, looking like a hunchback while doing it because I can at least see the bottom part of the windshield. So everything goes without a hitch. I get the mail and drive towards work.

I get to my exit and this car in front of me begins to swerve around. I don't know what he was thinking about. I wasn't driving fast enough or in any danger of getting in a wreck. I was just casually spectating until he just basically drove onto the grass. Luckily he had a big pick-up truck so he didn't suffer any damage but then I saw him driving off the other way, he was driving very slowly. He must have learned his lesson.

So I get to work. I get on the elevator with my tub of mail. I get to the mailroom and no one could be seen. If I would have said anything, there would have been an echo. Instead of just dropping my mail and running off back to home which I still don't know if I can actually do. I stamped the mail, put it in the correct boxes, and slumped down on this computer chair and begin talking to my loyal three in a half readers (don't know where I got three in a half from).

I mean for all it is worth, I am getting paid for this and something tells me that I don't really feel like going back out there in that nastiness for a while...

Andre: 1 Ice: 0

Rejected!!

It is something about myself that I need to start getting over. I hate being rejected. It is a difference than just losing as in I can handle losing if me or my team didn't play well enough to win but just being rejected by people is a pet peeve that I can't get over.

For example, when I am trying to talk to somebody or dance with someone. They immediately dash off to the "bathroom" and hang out with a douchebag that they will eventually call a jerk later on. It pisses me off like none other. It makes me think: what exactly did I do wrong? What do I need to do differently? Do I need to bother? All those questions come to mind when I think about these things.

Also, when I get rejected I rarely get back up on the saddle and try again with somebody else. I kind of shut down and just sit or stand by myself. I know that needs to stop but it is kind of difficult especially when you feel inadequate. So I kinda stew in my rejection for a little while until later on I'm kicking a burrito into a bush.

I don't know what I can do about it. Counseling? Nah I'm not doing that. Lowering my standards? That definitely isn't happening. Maybe I just need to get over myself. I told myself that one of my resolutions would be not to get angry sometimes when I hang out. So maybe I shouldn't get angry when I get rejected. It happens to everybody.

Even Kobe gets rejected from time to time....

(With him, it is basketball though. I don't want to get it twisted)