Hello people, for those that still read my blogger (why would you). I obviously haven't been on here for a long time. Mostly because I quit on spilling my personal feelings on this page and almost on twitter and my days have been long and boring that I don't really feel the need to actually put it on print. I do want to speak about why I am putting my main twitter account (@aht4005) on a ban until I feel like it. Here are some of the reasons.
1. Who Cares?
This isn't a plea for help or anything but something a vlogger/ writer was saying on his weekly vokle show that rang true to me. In general, nobody gives a f*ck about you and your twitter account. I'm not going to lie, I am the type of guy that likes attention, well at least a little attention. So if I am tweeting and tweeting away and nobody is responding, I kind of get pissed. It happens for a good 30 to 45 seconds then I'm on my way.
I started to put things into perspective and reread my tweets. I told myself, Man, this shit I'm saying doesn't really need for any responding anyways. So why should I care that no one responds? My tweets don't really lead to any conversations. Plus why should anyone care anyway? People have their own things going on, maybe they can't see the tweets, just maybe they don't care enough and if that's the case, it's all good. It's your right to do what you want, who am I to tell you what to do.
2. It's beginning to tire me out.
It is sort of how I felt about this blog a couple of years ago. I have that feeling that caring about what goes on in my twitter is really exhausting me. Last Sunday, I just told myself that I didn't need to tweet at this moment even though I was about to start tweeting away, it really began to take a toll. Social media shouldn't be doing this to me.
3. I need to square things within myself
I have been feeling negative lately. Could be a mixture of many things that I don't really want to get into now. But I knew at one point or another, it would all spill out on my twitter page. And that really isn't anyone's business really. I've gotten to the point where I need to deal things by myself, if I need a shoulder to lean on. There might be someone there but at this point, I know the things that I need to deal with and I am dealing with them accordingly. So when I am starting to feel great again, I will be back to tweeting what I want and doing what I want but only on my terms.
I think that's it. It won't be a lifetime ban or deleting my account altogether. I just want to take a break. I still read my TL from time to time but it feels relaxing to just sit there, watch, and not feel the need to tweet back. Now I've had some tweet-able moments that I've saved on my Notes App for when I decide to start tweeting but otherwise carry on with what you've been doing and I'll sit with my hands on the back of my head and relax.
