Wednesday, October 10, 2012

My Self Imposed Twitter Ban

Hello people, for those that still read my blogger (why would you). I obviously haven't been on here for a long time. Mostly because I quit on spilling my personal feelings on this page and almost on twitter and my days have been long and boring that I don't really feel the need to actually put it on print. I do want to speak about why I am putting my main twitter account (@aht4005) on a ban until I feel like it. Here are some of the reasons.

1. Who Cares?

This isn't a plea for help or anything but something a vlogger/ writer was saying on his weekly vokle show that rang true to me. In general, nobody gives a f*ck about you and your twitter account. I'm not going to lie, I am the type of guy that likes attention, well at least a little attention. So if I am tweeting and tweeting away and nobody is responding, I kind of get pissed. It happens for a good 30 to 45 seconds then I'm on my way.

I started to put things into perspective and reread my tweets. I told myself, Man, this shit I'm saying doesn't really need for any responding anyways. So why should I care that no one responds? My tweets don't really lead to any conversations. Plus why should anyone care anyway? People have their own things going on, maybe they can't see the tweets, just maybe they don't care enough and if that's the case, it's all good. It's your right to do what you want, who am I to tell you what to do.

2. It's beginning to tire me out.

It is sort of how I felt about this blog a couple of years ago. I have that feeling that caring about what goes on in my twitter is really exhausting me. Last Sunday, I just told myself that I didn't need to tweet at this moment even though I was about to start tweeting away, it really began to take a toll. Social media shouldn't be doing this to me.

3. I need to square things within myself

I have been feeling negative lately. Could be a mixture of many things that I don't really want to get into now. But I knew at one point or another, it would all spill out on my twitter page. And that really isn't anyone's business really. I've gotten to the point where I need to deal things by myself, if I need a shoulder to lean on. There might be someone there but at this point, I know the things that I need to deal with and I am dealing with them accordingly. So when I am starting to feel great again, I will be back to tweeting what I want and doing what I want but only on my terms.

I think that's it. It won't be a lifetime ban or deleting my account altogether. I just want to take a break. I still read my TL from time to time but it feels relaxing to just sit there, watch, and not feel the need to tweet back. Now I've had some tweet-able moments that I've saved on my Notes App for when I decide to start tweeting but otherwise carry on with what you've been doing and I'll sit with my hands on the back of my head and relax.

Monday, April 30, 2012

No High School Reunion for Me

I might be an asshole by saying this but honestly I won't be going to my high school reunion any time soon. It really doesn't make a difference to me whether I see some of these people are not. I know that most of them are still cool as I known them but it doesn't matter to me what has changed and stayed the same. Seeing people for old time sake is for those who want to see if they are better than others or not. I can care less about such trivial nonsense.

The realization came to me when I was looking at my facebook news feed and saw people from high school getting married and showing their marriage photos, and really my first thought was, "gee, I wonder how the World Footie Net fb page is doing." I gave it no thought at all. It goes the same with folks in Mississippi also, if they reach out and say hello I will do the same but I am not reaching out to anybody anymore. Call me a douchebag if you want to, there are many things that I am apathetic about these days and that is being in a popularity contest on social media.

The only reason why I don't get rid of my facebook page is because it's neat marketing for the World Footie Net page that one of my friends is trying to get sponsorship and more traffic on. So I guess I can keep that page up for posting any articles I write and any feedback to them if necessary.

I guess a major reason why I don't care what many people say anymore is because I am comfortable with the friends I have. If I can make more friends that would be cool, if not eh not the end of the world. Stressing out about that social media nonsense really is for the birds nowadays. I like to have fun on my twitter page and make fun of people whenever I feel like it or rant about anything footie-wise. Anything else isn't for me, so go on and show your wedding pictures high school folk. It is cool, it at least reminds me to put some of you as acquaintances so I don't see you on my news feed anymore....

Monday, January 16, 2012

It's Just Sports

I do get mad whenever my team loses and I say things like, "I am going to drown my sorrows because my team lost." However I am not going to take any extreme measures like going out to my local Applebee's and shooting somebody.

After the Saints and 49ers game, an Saints fan was so mad that he decided that he should go to the trunk and start shooting at a couple of 49er Fans. (Atlana 49ers Fan in Critical Condition)

I really want to know what it is really in the mind of some people who thinks that this is such a good idea, they are risking to spend the rest of their lives in jail for a football game? Because if Alex Smith is running for touchdowns, then I should do something to take myself out of society...riiight.

Sports is just entertainment for us. It is a way for most of us to get away from our reality for two to three hours. That is just it though, it is just entertainment. Once the match ends, life still goes on. Maybe Lebron had a point when he said that people can go on with their problem-filled lives. If someone plans on shooting up an Applebee's, there has to be some sort of problem with their lives that they can't deal with.

Things like what happened in Atlanta happen every so often, I remember when Auburn won the National Championship last year and an Alabama fan was so distraught that he killed a tree. People are so fanatical about their sports that it is scary, they would not mind taking a human's life for a game that shouldn't have any real consequence to them. Can't really change the human condition of this crazed fan-dom.

Maybe, I am one of the only people that think once the game is over, life still goes on. Sports should not really be in control of your life like this. They are all guys making money doing something that they are really good at. We should just appreciate the skills they have been blessed with and if our team should lose keep the gun in the trunk.

Well unless, you think jail is a safe place for yourself. That doesn't even sound right. Have fun with your anal rape sir...

Sunday, January 15, 2012

My New Years Resolution.

A New Year is here and it is Resolution Time!!

I don’t blame people for making resolutions. It is a good way to start off the year, and it gives motivation to those that need it. The reason why resolutions end up failing is because maybe life altering things have happened. Maybe a relationship fails, death in the family, injuring yourself among others could keep people from succeed in their resolutions.

Or maybe people are procrasinators anyway and they never stick to the resolutions that they were going to do

I know people who actually stay true to their resolutions and they become better and successful people for it. Resolutions are a healthy thing to have if done correctly. Work hard and find the resources to do well. Don’t go on the unhealthy route, like if you are trying to lose weight, don’t try to be anorexia or bulimic. And if you want to make money and be rich, please don’t be a drug dealer or a bank robber.

My resolutions aren’t really anything important. They are really for me to feel better and not worry about people who want to be right. I told myself if I’m engaged in a political or religious argument then I’m going to yell 2 CHAINNNZZZZ and walk off.

I’m not too much of a fan of those arguments because there are too many views and people want to be right for better or worse even would end a friendship over it. Plus I don’t know nor care about a lot of those issues because there is no way that I can get the person to understand. So let me just stop it with some ignorance and it makes me feel better.


Another Resolutions is to keep myself of getting bent out of shape. Not only because it is a way to lose friends, it could also lead to other things that aren’t healthy.

For example, I gained a ton of weight last year. Mostly my fault because at times I was lazy and should have worked out more. Also I felt like there were problems with me and me thinking that people were out to get me and no one wanted to talk or interact with me. Even if it was imaginary in reality, I sometimes felt like most of the world was against me. So I would mask my disappointment and anger by eating and drinking a ton during the first part of the year. Not the most healthy thing I’ve ever done and a very shameful thing also.

Luckily, I’ve snapped out of it. And hopefully I will be eating better and not drinking as much, only on special occasions. And I’m glad for the friends that I have and I should be focused on them rather than trying to make other friends. I’ll stop, it seems like I’ve written this hundreds of times, but I probably should reiterate it. Once again Thank You for always being there for me.

It is a new year. It’s 2012 and the 27th year of my life. I’m not going to say that this is going to be the best year of my life but I am just going to make the best out of it.

Those darn imaginary readers