Wednesday, October 10, 2012

My Self Imposed Twitter Ban

Hello people, for those that still read my blogger (why would you). I obviously haven't been on here for a long time. Mostly because I quit on spilling my personal feelings on this page and almost on twitter and my days have been long and boring that I don't really feel the need to actually put it on print. I do want to speak about why I am putting my main twitter account (@aht4005) on a ban until I feel like it. Here are some of the reasons.

1. Who Cares?

This isn't a plea for help or anything but something a vlogger/ writer was saying on his weekly vokle show that rang true to me. In general, nobody gives a f*ck about you and your twitter account. I'm not going to lie, I am the type of guy that likes attention, well at least a little attention. So if I am tweeting and tweeting away and nobody is responding, I kind of get pissed. It happens for a good 30 to 45 seconds then I'm on my way.

I started to put things into perspective and reread my tweets. I told myself, Man, this shit I'm saying doesn't really need for any responding anyways. So why should I care that no one responds? My tweets don't really lead to any conversations. Plus why should anyone care anyway? People have their own things going on, maybe they can't see the tweets, just maybe they don't care enough and if that's the case, it's all good. It's your right to do what you want, who am I to tell you what to do.

2. It's beginning to tire me out.

It is sort of how I felt about this blog a couple of years ago. I have that feeling that caring about what goes on in my twitter is really exhausting me. Last Sunday, I just told myself that I didn't need to tweet at this moment even though I was about to start tweeting away, it really began to take a toll. Social media shouldn't be doing this to me.

3. I need to square things within myself

I have been feeling negative lately. Could be a mixture of many things that I don't really want to get into now. But I knew at one point or another, it would all spill out on my twitter page. And that really isn't anyone's business really. I've gotten to the point where I need to deal things by myself, if I need a shoulder to lean on. There might be someone there but at this point, I know the things that I need to deal with and I am dealing with them accordingly. So when I am starting to feel great again, I will be back to tweeting what I want and doing what I want but only on my terms.

I think that's it. It won't be a lifetime ban or deleting my account altogether. I just want to take a break. I still read my TL from time to time but it feels relaxing to just sit there, watch, and not feel the need to tweet back. Now I've had some tweet-able moments that I've saved on my Notes App for when I decide to start tweeting but otherwise carry on with what you've been doing and I'll sit with my hands on the back of my head and relax.

Monday, April 30, 2012

No High School Reunion for Me

I might be an asshole by saying this but honestly I won't be going to my high school reunion any time soon. It really doesn't make a difference to me whether I see some of these people are not. I know that most of them are still cool as I known them but it doesn't matter to me what has changed and stayed the same. Seeing people for old time sake is for those who want to see if they are better than others or not. I can care less about such trivial nonsense.

The realization came to me when I was looking at my facebook news feed and saw people from high school getting married and showing their marriage photos, and really my first thought was, "gee, I wonder how the World Footie Net fb page is doing." I gave it no thought at all. It goes the same with folks in Mississippi also, if they reach out and say hello I will do the same but I am not reaching out to anybody anymore. Call me a douchebag if you want to, there are many things that I am apathetic about these days and that is being in a popularity contest on social media.

The only reason why I don't get rid of my facebook page is because it's neat marketing for the World Footie Net page that one of my friends is trying to get sponsorship and more traffic on. So I guess I can keep that page up for posting any articles I write and any feedback to them if necessary.

I guess a major reason why I don't care what many people say anymore is because I am comfortable with the friends I have. If I can make more friends that would be cool, if not eh not the end of the world. Stressing out about that social media nonsense really is for the birds nowadays. I like to have fun on my twitter page and make fun of people whenever I feel like it or rant about anything footie-wise. Anything else isn't for me, so go on and show your wedding pictures high school folk. It is cool, it at least reminds me to put some of you as acquaintances so I don't see you on my news feed anymore....

Monday, January 16, 2012

It's Just Sports

I do get mad whenever my team loses and I say things like, "I am going to drown my sorrows because my team lost." However I am not going to take any extreme measures like going out to my local Applebee's and shooting somebody.

After the Saints and 49ers game, an Saints fan was so mad that he decided that he should go to the trunk and start shooting at a couple of 49er Fans. (Atlana 49ers Fan in Critical Condition)

I really want to know what it is really in the mind of some people who thinks that this is such a good idea, they are risking to spend the rest of their lives in jail for a football game? Because if Alex Smith is running for touchdowns, then I should do something to take myself out of society...riiight.

Sports is just entertainment for us. It is a way for most of us to get away from our reality for two to three hours. That is just it though, it is just entertainment. Once the match ends, life still goes on. Maybe Lebron had a point when he said that people can go on with their problem-filled lives. If someone plans on shooting up an Applebee's, there has to be some sort of problem with their lives that they can't deal with.

Things like what happened in Atlanta happen every so often, I remember when Auburn won the National Championship last year and an Alabama fan was so distraught that he killed a tree. People are so fanatical about their sports that it is scary, they would not mind taking a human's life for a game that shouldn't have any real consequence to them. Can't really change the human condition of this crazed fan-dom.

Maybe, I am one of the only people that think once the game is over, life still goes on. Sports should not really be in control of your life like this. They are all guys making money doing something that they are really good at. We should just appreciate the skills they have been blessed with and if our team should lose keep the gun in the trunk.

Well unless, you think jail is a safe place for yourself. That doesn't even sound right. Have fun with your anal rape sir...

Sunday, January 15, 2012

My New Years Resolution.

A New Year is here and it is Resolution Time!!

I don’t blame people for making resolutions. It is a good way to start off the year, and it gives motivation to those that need it. The reason why resolutions end up failing is because maybe life altering things have happened. Maybe a relationship fails, death in the family, injuring yourself among others could keep people from succeed in their resolutions.

Or maybe people are procrasinators anyway and they never stick to the resolutions that they were going to do

I know people who actually stay true to their resolutions and they become better and successful people for it. Resolutions are a healthy thing to have if done correctly. Work hard and find the resources to do well. Don’t go on the unhealthy route, like if you are trying to lose weight, don’t try to be anorexia or bulimic. And if you want to make money and be rich, please don’t be a drug dealer or a bank robber.

My resolutions aren’t really anything important. They are really for me to feel better and not worry about people who want to be right. I told myself if I’m engaged in a political or religious argument then I’m going to yell 2 CHAINNNZZZZ and walk off.

I’m not too much of a fan of those arguments because there are too many views and people want to be right for better or worse even would end a friendship over it. Plus I don’t know nor care about a lot of those issues because there is no way that I can get the person to understand. So let me just stop it with some ignorance and it makes me feel better.


Another Resolutions is to keep myself of getting bent out of shape. Not only because it is a way to lose friends, it could also lead to other things that aren’t healthy.

For example, I gained a ton of weight last year. Mostly my fault because at times I was lazy and should have worked out more. Also I felt like there were problems with me and me thinking that people were out to get me and no one wanted to talk or interact with me. Even if it was imaginary in reality, I sometimes felt like most of the world was against me. So I would mask my disappointment and anger by eating and drinking a ton during the first part of the year. Not the most healthy thing I’ve ever done and a very shameful thing also.

Luckily, I’ve snapped out of it. And hopefully I will be eating better and not drinking as much, only on special occasions. And I’m glad for the friends that I have and I should be focused on them rather than trying to make other friends. I’ll stop, it seems like I’ve written this hundreds of times, but I probably should reiterate it. Once again Thank You for always being there for me.

It is a new year. It’s 2012 and the 27th year of my life. I’m not going to say that this is going to be the best year of my life but I am just going to make the best out of it.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Blogging on my iPhone

Yup, I've finally joined the dark side and got me an iPhone. I know what you are thinking. The douchebaggery will creep into my skin immediately. Don't worry about that. It won't happen.

I will be the same ordinary person with a cool ass phone. I got the phone yesterday and I have been doing what I didn't want to do. I've been on this thing 24/7. But I've just been getting use to the touch screen and downloading app after app. I got spotify which was one of the biggest reasons I got the phone.

When I experience more of the features , I'll make sure to brag about it. But not be a douchebag about it :)

Otherwise I might do some blogging on my phone because my thoughts come out while I'm not on my computer. My brain often doesn't work while I'm lying on the couch watching footy. The ideas usually pop off when I'm at work, hanging with friends , or whatever.

So as I raise my iPhone in the air in joy , I will leave you guys to enjoy your weekends and never keep the mind idle.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

iPhone, Scouting, Podcasts, My Pickup game...It's My Life

Hopefully I will buy a new phone this weekend. I am sort of getting tired of my Blackberry and more than likely getting an iPhone. My good friend says that I probably should get an Android phone but the only problem is that AT&T aren't as kind with their data plans on Androids as they are on their iPhones.

So I think I am close to joining the "Team iPhone" (corny team that I will never mention unless it's in a joking manner). I am going to have to buy something to protect my phone because i have butter fingers and I am very clumsy. Also I will have to get use to the touch screen and all which I think I can do.

I'm going to probably get the iPhone 4s because me and my supervisor were looking up the differences between the 4 and the 4s and we saw that it wasn't anything that important. I am not trying to say just because the new phone isn't called the iPhone 5 that I am unattracted to the 4s. It is more due to the fact that the 4s doesn't have enough features that would warrant me getting it. I'm pretty simple with the use of my phone. Obviously texting, GPS, possibly hotel lookups, and listening to music is probably what I would use the phone for. Games aren't as important. Maybe the odd picture of two that I would like to take would help. But I think the iPhone 4 would do the job just fine for me. Plus it is cheaper.

My scouting adventures stay in the triangle area. I'm going to Chapel Hill on Friday to watch two top 5 teams, Maryland and UNC. Then on Saturday, I will stay in Raleigh and see NC State take on Wake Forest. I'm not going to discuss anybody I'm scouting because I don't want to name drop or anything. Plus nobody cares about these adventures especially since I won't get out of the Triangle this weekend.

Went to my itunes when I got out of my workout and I noticed that I had six new podcasts ready to be listened to. It made me wonder how I got into all these podcasts. A year ago I don't think I had any on my list, now I have about six podcasts that I'm following.

They all reflect what I want to hear and talk about myself. Sports, Footie, and News with a funny twist. It also helped me get a more African American (or Canadian or Canadian-American to the All Balls Don't Bounce crew) view of sports and news. I always listened to ESPN and their bias views and I only realized when I started to listening to the Morning Jones that I knew that there was another side.

Then I begun listening to The Black Guy Who Tips, All Balls Don't Bounce, and the list goes on. Now I don't take their word as gospel but it is intelligent (also rachet) talk that I like listening to. Plus it is always good to see black people coming together and making podcasts. Ha!

I don't think I've played in an 11v11 game since that Alabama trip. And quite frankly I am not even mad about that. I like playing in more close spaces now because it is helping me getting better with decision-making and making my touch cleaner. I played on Tuesday night and I felt good on the ball, also making decent passes that I normally don't do.

I guess it is right, the older you get the slower the game becomes. I see the game a lot better now. Well it is only pick-up right? I shouldn't be getting ahead of myself but I do actually feel like my ball skills are getting better even though the gut seems to get larger.

Right now, I am eating my dinner listening to Where's My 40 Acres while Sportscenter is on the tv. I still can't believe the Raiders gave up a couple of first round picks (well one first round pick and a possible first round pick) on Carson Palmer.

I digress. I'm about to head out. I'm enjoying this alone time I'm having right now. Most times I feel the need to have some social interaction but tonight I actually went against my first thought and stayed at the crib. People are overrated anyways...

Have a good weekend. And awkwardly roll up to somebody like I would do...

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Stop Signing Off, Take the Beating like a Man (or Woman)

Dear FIFA 12 Online Players,

You don't know how it is frustrating whenever a person signs off or go to the dashboard right after I score my second or third goal on you in the first half. It isn't my fault that you suck. It isn't my fault I'm halfway paying attention to while I am stomping your ass in FIFA. Why don't you do something like, get better in FIFA.

Even when I am taking an ass-whoopin by somebody, I have the decency to carry out the rest of the game and take my whoopin like a man. But I guess the online geeks out there can't take their beatings respectfully

Listen, the real gamers in this community respect the game. We all get frustrated when we lose or getting beaten upon. It still doesn't mean that you can throw your toys everywhere and turn off your Xbox.

Just maybe I am playing against a bunch of amateurs at the moment but a couple of you guys begun to talk shit while playing me. Then after the game turns into a 5-0 beating, you start saying that I'm lucky and then turn off the game. Come on big man, you were tough talking when the game was 0-0 at kickoff, now it's 15 minutes in and you're quitting.

I wish that Xbox Live/FIFA/EA Sports or whoever is involved in moderating the FIFA online games starts banning these douchebags because this game needs real gamers not these tricks masquerading as such.

Peace Out and Happy Gamings,


Those darn imaginary readers