Benzema for First Choice Striker of Real Madrid!!....for a little bit at least

For all it's worth, I do think that Karim Benzema is a capable player. I just didn't enjoy his whining last year while Gonzalo Higuain was first choice striker, rightfully so in my opinion. I am the type of person that never forgets a cry-baby. So after Higuain was lost for this season, I thought that Real Madrid should look for a striker. Tevez? Drogba? I did not think that Benzema could carry the load. I think my view was a little jaded through my opinion of him.

He was off-form for a little while in the beginning of the season. It could have been due to him not playing much due to Higuain and it could have been due to the technical director (Valdano) and manager (Mourinho) arguing on whether to stick with Benzema after Higuain's injury or find a new striker. Soon enough though Jorge Valdano won out at least a little bit and Benzema got a bit more playing time as a result.

The last couple of games for Madrid and France, he has been impressive in my eyes. Watching the France-Brazil match probably got me to turning a new leaf on the guy and his ability to be the first choice striker for his club and country. So I can say that I am stand correct by the guy's performances the last couple of weeks.

Madrid decided to loan in Emanuel Adebayor. Now I can have my differences with Benzema however I feel as if he is a better player than Ade. Adebayor had one good season in Arsenal and I guess is still living on that memory. Noted, that Ade has had a lot to deal with over the last year (the incident in Angola at the African Nations Cup where the Togo NT bus was shot on), however he didn't pass my eye test. I would not pick him to be first choice striker of Madrid over Benz.

I don't know if Benzema has won over his manager. However he has at least won me over as a Real Madrid striker. I am concerned if Mourinho goes after a Didier Drogba and when Higuain comes back, he'll probably be back on the sidelines again. I think he can be a first-choice striker for a top team and he needs to be in order for France to achieve anything in the next four years (Euro 2012 and World Cup 2014).

I hope my praise of him doesn't lead to his overconfidence(even though I know he isn't listening)....

As I was typing this post, he scores on his first couple of touches of their Champions League match-up with his former club, Lyon. At least I am starting to get something right. Ha...

Me and My Blackbery

I was revisiting most of my blog post (actually trying to remember if I wrote a posting that I am going to dedicate to all the ladies that I proclaimed that I like them). And I found out my Iphone vs Blackberry post. I noticed that no one wrote anything down for that. I thank you for that, not really. However I know which phone I like right about now. Even though I haven't really tried out the Droid phone and I don't really want to.

I received my blackberry around December because my other phone broke beyond repair. I knew I had insurance on it so when I went to receive my replacement phone, I didn't know that I needed to upgrade. When the Blackberry box came to my door, I was surprised and I didn't think that it was mine. I called up AT&T to make sure they didn't make a mistake.

Fortunately, they did not make a mistake. I received the right phone and I haven't regretted it since.

I am a fan of the Blackberry due to its keyboard. The iphone is touch-base and I know that I'm not a fan of a touch phone. I know that I am a messy person at times and I like touching my phone a lot so having a touch phone while I have grease on my hands isn't a good look on many people's account.

Plus, I have fat fingers. At least I think I have fat fingers so whenever I would type on a touch phone, it would often give me the wrong letters. While having my blackberry curve, I can type my letters on a keyboard and feel at least good about myself. Plus most of their apps fit my needs. I love Blackberry AppWorld.

The decision was made for me rather than me making a decision. I got a Blackberry and haven't regretted my decision. Plus some of my friends still have them so I can BBM them rather than text and not waste any more money than I have.

I won't hate on a Iphone. I think any smart phone is the way to go. Especially if you are away on travel and don't feel like carrying your laptop around. You can get anything you want on a smart phone rather than finding a Wi-Fi service on your laptop and hoping it would work. It could save you whenever you need help. You won't know until you'll need it the most.

I'm going to stay with the Blackberry for a while. It fits my needs plus I found an otter-box to protect my phone. I heard that Iphone's are shaky when it comes to protection. I'm just glad that I finally have gotten out of the stone age and now I can finally be a real person...

I Am Cool! I don't have to prove a thing to anybody!!!

I know a lot of people.

Yeah that is a general statement but true. I do know a good amount of people and knowing these people fills you in on the make-up of certain human beings. I hang out with many different personalities. Some are cool, some are "normal", and some are crazy in ways that many can't imagine.

I start off this blog post with this because these personalities have many different ways in which they handle things. People buy a ticket to this roller coaster called life and go through their ups and downs. And others live stay level and are in tune with what their life is and are comfortable that they are doing what they are suppose to be doing.

I am an observant person for the most part. I am probably more observant than I actually need to be. There are people who want to be cool, there are also people who are actually cool, then there are people who kind of just chill on the sidelines. The people who try to act cool really get on my nerves. I see them all around, trying to impress girls, trying to impress other friends and just looking very ridiculous.

Being yourself is cool enough. If someone has to feel as if they need to prove something to other people, I feel like that is the wrong way to go. People like other people for being themselves. If their personality isn't with the people they hang out with, then that is a problem that they have to deal with and find some friends who can actually relate to each other.

Most of my friends are comfortable with themselves. They don't try to act like they need to prove something to someone because they don't need to prove anything to me. I am pretty easy to get along, I don't deal well with people who act one way around certain people, then act another way around others. Consistency is a key ingredient to any type of friendship.

If someone acts the same around people that they act around everyone, people can respect that. If you are consistent with your behavior and people dig that, then no one can fault you with that. It is just when someone changes how they are to prove that they want to be cool with other people.

I know this person now that I've figure out that they don't really have any concern about being my friend. They would rather make fun of me or try to make me look bad so that they could look good to everyone else. I can't respect that. And it finally took me until a couple of days ago to figure out that they aren't cool they just want to look good for everyone else.

If you are cool, you don't have to prove anything to anyone. I don't even think I'm cool and I still don't try to prove that I'm cool. I make fun of everybody accordingly. I don't try to make myself look good for the sake of other people. I don't think that is the right way to go about things.

And the other thing is that, that person doesn't really recognize this and tries to think that he is making himself look good on my expense. Let me tell you something, I don't have to prove my worth to anybody. People like me for me and if you don't like me then I won't blame you for anything. That is your opinion and you are going to stick with it. I won't try to change your opinion of me.

Let me end by saying that I have more to say. I am just done with this topic.

Call Me an Elitist

I will admit this. I am a soccer snob. I do not like playing with people who aren't as good as I am. This is the only thing I am uppity about. Don't mistake it, I don't mind playing with players who are competent in the game. However when people wear khaki shorts or blue jeans, we can't play soccer together. It is just not going to happen.

I came up with this realization when we were playing pick-up yesterday. We were enjoying our game and these guys wanted to come up and play. We made some excuse about wanting to play in a shorter space and having two more guys come on will mess that up. In my mind, I just didn't want them to come on because it would make the game bad.

When we usually play with other players who we don't know, they often do dumb shit like chipping the ball in the air for no reason. Or do some stupid move that has them get the ball taken away from them and we end up losing the game.

The reason why I feel this way is because whenever I play I would like to get better or have a productive session of footy. I don't want to lose any of my soccer IQ playing against someone who trips over there own feet often and just doesn't get it. I'd rather just go to the side and juggle the ball for a little bit. It would be much more productive to my day.

Maybe I am a little crabby about playing against bad players because I do often drive between 15 to 20 miles to play. I want to get the most out of each session that I can. And I don't want to waste gas on being out there with players that could not start on their rec teams (now that is just a bit mean).

As my game gets worse over time (hopefully not soon), then I'll be able to get use to playing against the normal people. I'll come out of my high pedestal and join the common man in this beautiful game that I love...

The Start of Reevaluating

I feel that I try to find miserable situations. I am pretty sure that I haven't really felt happy in a long time. I am not trying to make me feel bad about myself or you feel sorry for me. I just feel a difficulty of feeling happy at this point in time.

I guess it is sort of a self-fulfilling prophecy. If I want to be miserable, then I am going to be miserable. I don't want to feel pissed off over anything. However it comes easier than being happy about things. Shouldn't it be the other way around?

I wish that I could say that it was because of this day or anything along those lines. However I have not been feeling right for a long time. I mean there are certain moments where I am content about things. Then these moments disappear in a blink of an eye. And I am back to be dissatisfied about things.

I guess it isn't healthy either to find a quick fix to my problems. I am guilty about doing that at times. I think I can find one thing or another to keep me happy for a day or a weekend. Once that passes I often get more angry than before. I think I need a break from everything. I don't know if what I am doing now is working.

I always talk about re-evaluating my life as a joke but now I think I am going to have to start doing that. This (my life) is not working. I can't go through life in an unhappy state all the time. I know that and understand it. There is only one end for those people and I don't really want that for me.

Maybe I need some sort of guidance, I haven't been helpful on that front. I don't want someone telling me what to do maybe I just need someone to point me in the right direction. Every time since about 2008, I have pretty much made a lot of wrong turns and decisions that has got me back to zero.



I think I like writing things like this on my blog site just for a bit of understanding. I don't know if many of you understand how I feel when I am not around or talking to you. I feel at least a bit more comfortable when people at least know a bit more about me. I am not really comfortable about talking about it and maybe I need to. I don't think that I want to show any of my weaknesses if I do talk about it.

Just searching for a normal life, if I know exactly what that is...

Taking this Year off

I was going to write this ridiculous blog posting about basically hating a holiday that isn't real and all that jazz but I probably should leave it alone and take this year off of making my assault on this day.

For starters 1) I've written lots of notes to myself saying that I don't like that crappy day or anything.
2) I don't think I would write a full post. I'd probably get to some point and just stop abruptly and not get something started.
3) I don't really want you guys to have the satisfaction of listening to misery.

So I am going to take the high road for once. Not say anything mean to people tomorrow and keep my thoughts about it to myself because I understand that it is my loneliness talking and I can handle that. Now I am not going to be happy all of a sudden but I am just going to keep my mouth close for once and let everybody enjoy their day. There are people that are happy and I should not try to rain on their parade.

Now if someone asks why I don't have a Valentine's and keeps on pushing it. Then I am not responsible for my action. Just let me get through my work-day, get home and play fifa for the rest of this day til I don't have to see these crappy commercials.

(Because I know fully that most of these stupid flowers will be sent to my office and I have to deliver them to people. Luckily I only work a half-day tomorrow)

Thanks...

Continuing to Try and Figure Myself Out

It is ridiculous how I feel whenever I have a day off. Yesterday, I had my day off to deal with a couple of matters that had to be tended to. After I was done, I caught myself being incredibly bored and sort of wishing that I was at work.

I know what you are thinking. This job isn't well-paid nor am I being a full-time worker but still even though I act cranky due to working 9 to 6 sometimes. I actually do not mind it at the end of the day in which the day is almost over. Then all I have to do now is either chores or watch tv (often I watch tv).

I think that is why I cannot wait to hold down a full-time job. Now I don't have any kids (that I know of), no girlfriend, and really no priorities except for bills that I will need to pay. I think it is something that I am actually looking forward to. Work during the week and possibly "play" during the weekends, it is an intriguing prospect.

Don't get it twisted that soccer isn't in the rear-view yet, however I am beginning to take a more realistic view about things on that front. If I can't find somewhere that I know people in high-places at this point in time, the whole soccer thing isn't going to happen more than likely. I actually rather play on this CASL Elite team that I am on. A bunch of guys like myself who if dedicated themselves could still play but are realistic about their chances and like to have fun off the pitch.

So what am I saying? Am I giving up my dream? Am I ready to wear a suit? No and No but I can see a bit clearly on what I need to do to become independent for myself and not have to rely on people. I need to rely more on myself than others or I would put myself in trouble as I have done in the past...